I Had a Stroke at 29
I Had a Stroke at 29

(Photo credit: Sean McNeil)

5:20 a.m., ICU

Sean fills the basin with hot water and places it nearby. He’s still bleary with sleep and questioning my sanity, my need to do this—now. He brings the comb he picked up on his way in one night and the conditioner we use at home, and that’s what it smells like. Home.

Slowly, painstakingly, he wets each tendril of hair and lathers it with conditioner. I feel flattered and helpless. Inch by inch, ends to scalp, I comb the tangles. It hurts. And it takes a long time.

When I’m done, he combs it all back and watches me maneuver a ponytail despite the tubes in my arm. I think the doctors won’t recognize me. Maybe a nurse will say, “You have such pretty hair.” I feel somewhat restored, a little less in crisis. “I love you,” Sean says. And I smile tiredly through the pain.

I hadn’t combed my hair in three days.

And on a basic level that mattered. But after being shipped from one hospital to another, one room, one machine to another, it mattered less.

It was tangled, messy, sticking up in strange places. I barely recognized it as my own; I barely recognized me as myself.

It reminded me of my own helplessness.

Every morning, they came for blood. I called the nurse and asked for a bedpan when I needed it.

Oh, and my dignity, bring that, too. Dignity and a comb. And a doctor’s order with permission for a shower. Supervised shower? I’ll take it.

When I went to bed on Nov. 27, 2011, my biggest problem was coming down from the weekend and facing work on Monday. When I woke up in the morning, the bottom fell out.

That day and for the next eight days, I functioned with the most terrible headache imaginable, waiting for the pain to pass, wondering why over-the-counter, extra strength pills weren’t working.

It got progressively worse: dizziness, inarticulateness, looking at words and not being able to read, as if they were written in a foreign language.

I was not used to being a foreigner among words.

That’s when real concern set in. Ordinary headache it was not.

At the doctor’s office, the nurse practitioner fired off questions and frowned with concern when we talked about my symptoms.

“We need to get you to the ER,” she said. “It might be nothing, but it could be something and we need to find out.”

In the ER, the nurse asked me my name, if I knew where I was, what month it was. I couldn’t remember. It was December.

After the MRI, a gray-haired doctor came in. There was bleeding on the left side of my brain and a clot the size of a small egg behind my ear. I looked in wonder at the scan he held up.

A stroke at 29? I guess it was something after all.

The nurse gave me morphine and ice chips while I waited for an ambulance to EVAC me to a hospital with a neurology unit.

“You’re taking this so well,” the EMT in the ambulance said. “What else can I do?” I asked, watching fascinated as I twirled my feet in circles beneath the blanket on the gurney.

Shock does that.

A stroke occurs when a blood vessel that carries oxygen and nutrients to the brain is either blocked by a clot or bursts (or ruptures). When that happens, part of the brain cannot get the blood (and oxygen) it needs, so it and brain cells die. – American Stroke Association.

An ischemic stroke, the one I had, can be caused by a clot obstructing the flow of blood to the brain. A hemorrhagic stroke happens when a blood vessel ruptures and prevents blood flow to the brain.

A TIA or transient ischemic attack, also called a “mini stroke”, is caused by a temporary clot.

The vast majority of strokes occur in people over age 65, but 10 percent to 15 percent affect people age 45 and younger, this study found. Strokes in the “young” are less common, so they’re more likely to be misdiagnosed and chalked up to vertigo, migraine, and intoxication, among other issues. Because of that, proper treatment isn’t always immediately put in place.

After 48 to 72 hours, there aren’t any major interventions available to improve stroke outcome.

I was young, I was in good health, I didn’t smoke and I exercised regularly. In fact, I’d been training for a half-marathon when the brain hemorrhage happened. I ran through the pain, invincible, until I showed up at the ER.

I was lucky. My doctor’s nurse practitioner recognized the signs and sent me to the hospital. The doctor there did an MRI and spotted the clot.

If you think you have symptoms, don’t do what I did. Despite the signs, I didn’t know and I waited much longer than 72 hours to seek help. That I could walk and talk, then and now, is quite frankly, a miracle.

In the ICU of the new hospital, they came every hour to make sure I was functioning, that my eyes dilated, that I could squeeze their fingers and push back on their hands with my feet.

One nurse had me read through flip cards; another did ultrasounds on my heart and the blood vessels in my neck. The things they do when you have a stroke. CT scan. MRI. Questions. Every hour. Would there be surgery?

My brothers flew in. Eighteen hundred miles away, my parents agonized long distance. A revolving door of concerned friends and family commenced.

Seven days later, I was discharged.

The pain was still ever present, but tolerable and fading. Some words were still hard to find in conversation. Sometimes I got dizzy; I was exhausted, tired of the hospital and being sick. I needed sleep and familiar things.

The clot would shrink and the blood would dissipate, but I wouldn’t get confirmation for another three years from another neurologist that the cause was my birth control shot.

Hormonal contraceptives nearly double women’s risk of stroke and we die from it at a much higher rate than men. We account for 60 percent of all stroke deaths, the AHA says. Read and believe the fine print, ladies. It’s real and it happens.

By no means am I anti-birth control. I believe in every woman’s right to choose. But I also strongly believe that we must ask questions, we must talk about our options with trusted health care professionals and understand the risks before deciding what kind of birth control we want or if we want it at all. Information is power.

In the months after my discharge, at home, on the couch or in bed, I did a lot of sleeping enforced by my healing brain.

I did a lot of thinking and a lot of feeling.

I couldn’t drive, exercise or lift heavy objects, walking the dog left me dizzy and panting. It was frightening, frustrating, humiliating and humbling to be so fully dependent on others, especially for a fiercely independent woman like me.

Life never seemed so short; time and possibility and gratitude had never stretched out so far beyond me.

It was and is one of those crisis reminders that shakes you out of a complacent life. For me, it became about how could I accomplish the things I wanted to do, the things that made me happy, and how I could find a place professionally and personally that would take me there.

Days like World Stroke Day today, established by the World Stroke Organization to help spread public awareness of stroke risk and prevalence, are my annual reminder to be grateful, to take stock, and to share my experience, no matter how vulnerable it has left me. It’s why I wear yellow.


Almost three years later, Sean—the man who slept on an ICU recliner every night not knowing if his fiancée would still be the woman he proposed to two weeks before—and I are married, we have a beautiful daughter, and I have a drive-me-batshit-crazy-stressful-news-junkie job I love.

The effects are still there. Sometimes I forget words or what I’m saying in the middle of a conversation, or where the glasses go, or where I’m going. I function around it and despite it. Most people don’t even know. But life for me will always be Kari Before The Stroke and Kari After The Stroke, in so many ways.

The improbable is now possible, whether it means failure, death or successes, even the small ones.

To learn more about how to recognize a stroke please visit The Stroke Association and help bring awareness to World Stroke Day.

kari 2Kari Cobham is a writer, editor and social media strategist. She is currently the executive producer of social media at a TV station in Orlando. A former SPJ award-winning journalist at The Daytona Beach News-Journal, her editorial work has been featured on MSNBC’s Today Books, Orlando Sentinel, the3six5 lifestream project, SHE and Caribbean Beat magazines. She has also edited three of New York Times bestseller Pat Croce’s books on piracy. She lives in Orlando with her beautiful daughter Maya, husband Sean and pup Rox. You can follow her on Twitter.

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  1. Zita
    Posted November 1, 2014 at 9:06 am | Permalink

    thanks for sharing your personal story ! My bother got a stroke when he was 9 and it changed his life forever but it made all of us stronger and aware that strokes can happen at any age really. I know first hand what your family went through and you’re very blessed to have bounced back! Thanks for the share!

  2. Mom
    Posted October 30, 2014 at 10:05 pm | Permalink

    So happy and proud of you for sharing your experience
    And making a difference. You always make a difference.
    You are amazingly strong, courageous and full of joie de vivre. I love you.

  3. Lesley
    Posted October 30, 2014 at 5:13 am | Permalink

    Hi, amazing story! I also had a stroke, 2 in fact, this year, at 30. With the second one, fortunately they managed to stop it before it fully progressed. Unfortunately, they still havent been able to figure out what caused them as all the tests have been coming out clear. The doctors also dont seem to be taking it seriously because of my age and the negative test results.

    • Posted October 30, 2014 at 11:18 pm | Permalink

      Lesley, thank you for sharing your experience. You have to make them take you seriously and if they don’t, find a neurologist who will. Not knowing the cause is like a sentence hanging over your head, a constant waiting for it to happen again. It took me three years to get answers. Keep pushing. You deserve it and your health is too important to stop.

      • Lesley
        Posted November 3, 2014 at 1:57 am | Permalink

        Thanks Kari, will do. Its just been such a hectic year I think I was giving up as well, but I will keep pushing.

        • Posted November 3, 2014 at 8:44 am | Permalink

          Please do! And let me know how it all turns out. I had to get to the point where health HAD to come first. Work and life demands have to take a back seat and you can feel guilty about it. If you’re not healthy or have a treatment plan, you can’t do any of it.

          • Posted November 3, 2014 at 8:44 am | Permalink


          • Lesley
            Posted November 4, 2014 at 2:43 am | Permalink

            So true! I guess its getting to that point of realising that something’s gotta give that’s so difficult for so many of us :) I will keep you updated. Thanks for the encouragement.

  4. Lystra Warner
    Posted October 29, 2014 at 5:55 pm | Permalink

    Thank GOD, Kari u are still here with us, and thanks for the info, and for those who shared their experiences with us.

  5. Victoria
    Posted October 29, 2014 at 3:56 pm | Permalink

    My first experience with a stroke came back in 2001 when, while speaking to my mother, found her words sounded slurred, I asked her what is wrong and she said she think she is getting a stroke, we rushed her to the doctor and after some quick action she was almost back to her old self, driving, looking after the grandchildren, cleaning house, you get my drift.

    But in April of 2012 we found out she had Lymphoma I was devastated, during the next 8 months she went though several small strokes, which left her unable to use one of her hands but being the strong woman that she was, she was determined to not let it beat her.

    After several days in the hospital with pneumonia and back out she started to go down, several tests later we found out that she had a hemorrhagic stroke and because of her weakened state there was nothing that they could do, I saw her slowly slipping away.

    She lost her battle on November 24, 2012. Had we known or had there been a more thorough test maybe…. I tell myself….but after the last stroke we were feeding her through a tube in her nose and she had no control of her body of functions, we assumed she could speak to us by shaking her feet, which was all she could do.

    I think that ignorance regarding any disease is a mistake especially when we think that only old people can get this.


  6. Casie
    Posted October 29, 2014 at 3:35 pm | Permalink

    Beautifully written. So many women, I’m sure, think it’ll never happen to them – like so many things in life. But it can, and it does. Knowing the signs and symptoms is so important for us all. Thank you for sharing, Kari.

  7. Posted October 29, 2014 at 3:13 pm | Permalink

    So well written. My son had a stroke when he was five. Although he was so young I still say “Liam before the stroke” and “Liam post stroke”. Of course as he gets older it will just become a part of who he is, I suppose. But I’ll never forget his ability with language and conversation before that stroke. He was a talker… He still is… He just gets tripped up sometimes with those words.

  8. Kalifa
    Posted October 29, 2014 at 12:51 pm | Permalink

    You never cease to amaze me Kari! :)

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